A mahu, a mohawk, and a free tamale

So sorry, no pictures today, just a few words, and thoughts…

Today (rather Sunday) was a good day. I mean visually…I should have had a camera. Just a small one, you know, one of those new Panasonics, or Canon…just something to pop in the pocket without thinking about it. Maybe I should get an iPhone, or maybe just a new iPod. Just to snap away.

So today’s visual diary starts like this…

We had to shop a bit for a small Christmas Party Yukako is having on Tuesday. You know, a few of her work friends, some gossip, a bit of wine, and the doting husband to wash all the dishes. We sadly now have a membership to Costco (hell and a push cart to go with it) so we went to waist our money on a few bulky items. As we are there, shoppers were going mad, I mean crazy, over the free samples of whatnot this and that. People lined up stepping over each other to get a free sample of something they’d never buy or think of buying.

One of the funniest things was to see the madness over the strange tasting frozen tamales*

A camera would have been great…just something to see how mad people can get when they perceive to get something free. I tasted one…it was terrible. Rueben’s in San Antonio…thats all you need. I remember my father saying people lined up for hours to get a few dozen for New Years. Actually a store here in Honolulu run by a Chilanga makes ever second Saturday tamales. They are not Texas style but more of that real Mexican taste..expensive but good.

To you guys who go to Costco to get free stuff…there are no words to describe what an absolute moron you are. Too bad I didn’t have a a camera to capture you.

Speaking of tamales, President Ford, in a visit to San Antonio, tried a tamale, and sadly, the gringo didn’t peel it and tried to eat the corn husk. Its like eating the box the burger came in. It was funny…I don’t remember it but it seems funny now.

Hell…I even found an image on the internet.

so I lied about images…so what.

On the way back from Costco, we stopped at Ross and again, madness…shoppers and kids and more shoppers packed trying to buy whatever they could get there hands on. Poor people’s kids were running in and around the clothing racks, up the escalators, etc…with no supervision. The parents could have cared less. Madness. Maybe they weren’t poor but that seems to be the only people who were stuffed at Ross’s Dress for Less or whatever you call it. I can assume that only means we are poor as well. I’ll change my statement, the store was filled with ill raised children. Merchandise was strewn across the floor everywhere. Maybe it was the parents. I couldn’t stand it. I had to leave. But before I did…a small boy, probably about 5 or so was on the floor near the hats, toys, whatever section I don’t recall, and he was strumming away on a toy ukelele. And funny, he was pretty good. Even funnier, he had a full on mohawk. Here is this kid, dressed in decent clothing, a bit dirty from play though, sitting facing the ukulele and strumming and singing away…truly a Kodak moment.

Finally after leaving the madness of the shopping world, we made it back home but had to pass down the backside of our building when walking like a supermodel comes strutting one kine mahoo**. Ladies, he wasn’t afraid to work that stuffed tube top, nor the stuffed biker shorts that was filled with all the fat and giggle you could fit in. He wasn’t all that bad looking if you were desperate for a date, but you could spot that guy a mile away. Maybe it was the tube top and high heals. Again, no camera, no ability to snap a pix.

Alas, I need a small cheap digicam. I haven’t wanted to buy one cause they never take the perfect photos I want. I feel like they lack so much…yet I lack so much when I can’t take that perfect moment photo.

So if you are listening or reading Santa, Mom, or Yukako, stuff that present under the tree…and make sure it at least has 12 megapixels!

…no wait, we not gots a tree. Damn!

*for you gringos, a tamale is a corn dough stuffed with a spiced meat stuffed in a corn husk.

**a mahoo is the Hawaiian word for a cross dresser.

I’m on a roll!

I got a cover of Michael Emerson from Lost. Quick, simple and a nice image. I had shot Mr. Emerson before for another job and I shot him quickly on the beach. He had just started Lost so he wasn’t too big of a TV star here yet but now, Emmy and all, he is a big star. True to his stage background, he was real and didn’t put on for anyone. No drama, no stress. Funny, I was more stressed out over it all.

Simple lighting…one umbrella, black cutter causing a neg fill. I directed him to be himself, not “Ben Linus.” He actually looked confused as he wasn’t sure how to act as most actors do but within minutes, he came out and we captured a great shot.

Here is my take.


The cover looks great. Thanks Gina.

Bon Appetit!

FINALLY…after waiting months, Bon Appetit finally put my image to ink and I got a great tearsheet.

See the web page here.

I was assigned last year to shoot fishmonger Brooks Takenaka at United Fish Agency in Honolulu for the magazine’s Starter page. Creative direction was simple, strong light, medium to light background, and power. Immediately I thought Penn-ish and Avedon-ish and with Hugh G as my lighting tech and assistant, we nailed the shot.

I mentally created this shot days before I was scheduled to shoot. I searched my library of books and internet for ideas, lighting schemes, and inspiration and figured how to create my vision into reality. In other words, I went to this job with this idea in mind.

Yet all the planning in the world cannot create a shot as the one above. Never would I have thought or seen this shot days before. I love the graphic feeling of this shot and in many ways, it sort of what I see in dreams. No not fish tails and hands, but lines, dark, shadows, and graphic feelings. I love this shot. The veins in the arm mimic the lines in the fish as do the nails mimic the points of the tail and other points of the fish. Everything is like a mirror. See it? I see myself? Or at least those dreams.

Kwanon for Canon!


I came across the history the Canon camera logo and found back in 1933, the original optical company which created the camera (some say copied from Leica) established themselves as Kwanon, the Buddhist Goddess of Mercy. According to their website, “The logo included the word with an image of ‘Kwanon with 1,000 Arms’ and flames.”

Not to be ones who would isolate potential buyers with their eastern beliefs, the company changed the name to Canon and logo to the current logo.

Imagine having that Buddhist logo all over your cameras. Now that would be eye catching!

You’d blend it!

Pollution, people, and the humidity.

So after scanning loads of film, I’ve gotten a few thoughts together on my visual trip through Bangkok (with a side trip to Ayutthaya.) And oddly, I find myself remembering my first trip to Bangkok in 1997. It wasn’t so much that we didn’t have a great time and make new memories as this was my second trip to Bangkok with Yukako. We had a great time on both trips. But something made me hark back to times past.

I had already traveled to Central America in the mid 90s (Nicaragua, El Salvador, Honduras, and Guatemala) before so I was comfortable being on the road, backpacking, and sleeping in places that were…well…lets just say hot water wasn’t included, ever. Central America is like Mexico, only poorer. However, Bangkok was different. Its an ancient tropical, exotic city. Century old temples surrounded by modern glass sky rises. Beautiful women, spicy food, and white sand beaches. BKK seems to be the hub to all of Asia as when I got off the flight, I saw multi-hued turbans, saris, sandals, dashikis, burquas, I mean it was like being James Bond, international traveler. I couldn’t get over it. It just blew my mind. Don’t forget, San Antonio is a long way from Bangkok.

So after escaping the airport late at night and getting suckered by a taxi driver, I got dropped off near Khao San Rd, the back packing mecca of South East Asia. And with U2’s Pop album being the background of this trip, inside this bustling Asian capital, I found banana pancakes, white kids with dreadlocks, Jimmy Hendricks posters, unshaven legs, old European men with very young (and many times, older and more “worn”) Thai ladies, European football games on the television, and cheap booze. I heard Dutch, Hebrew, Ozzie, Japanese, German and Brit all being spoke at once in one place. Funny at the time, I remember being really the only American in many of the guest houses or places I stayed. I was alone in a very non-American spot.

After a few hours, I realized I wasn’t in Thailand or Asian at all for that matter if I stayed around the backpacking district. Disco music, fake designer clothes, cheap souvenirs, and cheap dates. I actually don’t recall ever seeing that many Thai except those shadowy types like unscrupulous tuk-tuk drivers selling rides, girls, and drugs, and those others who who were willing to sell whatever to get your dough.

Backpackers, like I’ve mentioned in past posts, tend to associate themselves with some odd subculture or those just full of absolute wanderlust…as if they are running away from themselves or something else where ever they came from. I mean, its not a new for people to leave where they are from. Its just sometimes in the backpacking crews, you find people who live out of their “backpack” sustaining themselves on nothing more than a few dollars a day and trying to integrate themselves into whatever culture their passport stamp says. These types grow the dreadlocks and hang out trying to pretend they are gaining some great knowledge by going to some temple in some faraway place thinking they are bridging some unique world by being more open than those who don’t travel. Sure we gain something but vacations and travel all have to have an end date. Perpetual travel is tough and it makes you odd.

Some are very friendly when in the backpacking districts yet there are others who, once outside the safety area, would rather pretend they are not Euro/White/Amer whatever and would rather ignore you than face having to speak their native tongue to one who looks lost.

I found that nasty wanderlust to be harmful at times as it can be infectious…dashing to new places every other day is fun…yet the routes are well traveled and to find something new that someone hasn’t already written or photographed is sadly eroding due to the mass publication of travel. But those on the road too long tend to be strange as if their time away has made it harder to return to normalcy. Being in a place like Tokyo or Bangkok can make you into a “rock star.” You, the foreigner, become the exotic one and people tend to offer you flattering amounts of attention (yet much of it is due to the fact that your wallet is bigger than most locals in a poor nation.) Often I would and still see young males who couldn’t date a beauty back home (read–total nerd/dork whatever) to save their lives yet you’d find an Asian beauty queen at arm clinging to every word. Are they paid, who knows? But its much easier to date your English teacher than to actually have to study.

But once I walked away from the tourist district, I found what I traveled across the world to see. I found the Asia I sort of figured I would find. Golden Buddhas, god-like statues and shrines, orange robed monks, incense, odd bits of food, smiles, confused looks, more smiles, different smells, sounds, touts, colors, and heat.

I found ducks and pig parts hanging in windows, smelt old buring oil cooking odd bits in an old dirty woks, got surrounded by thousands of people on a busy street in what seemed like a unbelievably hot summer afternoon. I remember my clothes being stuck to my body. It was so hot. That beer or Coke washed down so well cause it was so hot.

I remember seeing a drunk, or maybe he was a drug addict passed out in some strange corridor of Chinatown, head down, a pool of blood at his feet. The blood was so deep red. It was dripping out of his mouth and puddled at his feet.


Chinatown, Bangkok Oct 2009

I looked for that negative of the drug addict as I did remember snapping that photo, alas, so many years have passed…and maybe my memory is more of an imagination and that negative is truly a negative. Writer Audrey once said to me she didn’t like taking photographs of places she traveled too as she felt those images would replace the real memories of what she experienced. Maybe my memory of that early morning walk in Bangkok’s Chinatown are worth more as a memory than that negative I’ve been searching for.

These women, at the Erawan Shrine off Sukhumvit Rd are part of a dance troupe that will perform for a fee in order for your prayers to get answered. For some odd reason I found this place holds some odd significance for me. I don’t remember why I went there other than I remembering I rode on the back of a motorcycle to get here. The bike zipped in and out of traffic scaring me to death but the ride from the Peachy Guest House on Prah Athit Rd was probably only .20 cents or so. I remember taking this photograph and thinking I was the only person in the world at that moment reflecting on this performance. I didn’t know why they were there nor do I recall much more than the bike ride. I do remember it was July of 1997. I walked back a bit towards the guest house area and remember stopping at some dump of a place to eat some cheap meal of noodles or curry. The locals didn’t know what to think of me. I think they were surprised I ate there food and didn’t ask for banana pancakes.

I guess this shrine just struck me. I found men dressed in business suits, well heeled women, and the likes on their needs, incense in hand, placing garlands of flowers around a statue that looked like the Indian god Brahma, a multifaced god.

This picture is of the same Erawan Shrine but taken in October 2009. I don’t know which one I like. I don’t know if I like any of them. I don’t notice the difference of what I saw or how I captured it. Its what I saw.

The other memorable spot in Bangkok I always seem to visit is Wat Traimit. It brings back memories of my father who, during his service time in the Korean War, spend R&R in Bangkok. He recalls his visit to a shrine with a five ton Buddha status made completely of solid gold. His recollection of this palace gave him a faraway look, the look of a Spainard dreaming of gold in distant lands. I guess its that Latin blood in his veins…and in mine. I think it was more of his dreams of his youth…innocence…yet innocence lost to the Army and the Korean War.

The picture above is modern, Oct 2009. The temple is being remodeled and expanded making way for more worshipers and visitors. The actual heavy weight Buddha wasn’t on displace when I was there this past month sad to say so I might have to go back and show my respects from myself and my father.

Taken in July 1997, a golden face at the temple. The statue is actually covered in gold leaf as worshipers placed this upon his face. Who he is was is a mystery to me.